Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

Alright, I haven’t done a blog in a long time.  And when I did I never stuck with it.  I am aiming to reduce the number of things I do.  And I want this to be one.  I sometimes write vaguely, other times in poems/ lyrics and sometimes I just want to post a journal.  Blah!  Who cares!  This is journal!

I just got back from New Orleans, and while I was there I realized there are a lot of things I feel are the core of my being, and people dont’ see it o know about it.  So….. drunk, in NOLA, 600am, and about to go to bed after an incredible night, I decided that that was fucked up and needed to change, and this is the beginning.

I’m not a huge fan of list blogs, but I’m doing it anyway. This is a list (maybe more of a commitment) of what I want to stop hiding about myself.  I wrote it, at 700am in the hotel lobby before I went to bed. 

1. I Love Music (it is all of me)
2. I am a musician & will share my music (AAHH!!)
3. I am an artist (in varying degrees of ability but I am an artist)
4. I have something to say

I don’t know, I think that’s it. This post is turning a little inspirational and cheesy for my tastes, but I had nothing to say when I started and this is where I ended up. I guess it needed to be said.

Thanks drunk buddy for inspiring me.

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Do you ever feel like things have just changed.  Nothing specific, or maybe it’s just too many things, but something has just changed.  

I have been inspired.  Not to change, but to not be the same.  I have tried to be everything but have succeeded at nothing.  And of my laundry list of skills/ abilities there are few I am proud of or that I actually do well.  I realized this weekend that those core elements of me are what I hide, what I protect, and what I rarely share.  I always thought I lived my life like an open book, but that’s not true, it’s more like the back cover.  I only reveal enough to get people interested and nothing of real value.

I have been inspired.  I am going to commit myself to the pieces of me I care about.  Not aiming to be a standout in any crowd and not to impress, to focus on me.

I have been inspired.